How it feels

Sooo, ada scene di fanfic yang katakatanya sangat nyesek
dan sangat... nge-jleb

Do you know what I felt back then? Back to the days when you don't know my existence yet, I keep loving you from afar. Seeing you smile would make me happy. Supporting you by attending you events like fansigning, showcase, music show performance, watching your interviews and tv guestings, reading facts and fanfics about you, being delusional about having you, buying your albums and merchandises, crying with you when you win an award, watching your fancams, smiling like an idiot each time you thanks the fans and tell them that you love them, feeling hurt when someone bashes you, and promising that I'll stand by you till he end.

Those things are more than enough to tell you how much you mean to me. but, of course, I could never mean  that much to you. Aren't all idols are the same? They will tell their fans that they love them. The fans know a lot of things about their idols, but di idols do? All thise fan dream of being with their dearest idol, but in reality, it will never be. Like you, there are (how many members are in the band that you like) of you, but you have thousand or even millions of fans. It's impossible for the (how many members are in the band that you like) of you could be with them all. you know why? because there are only (how many members are in the band that you like) out of seven billion people in the world who could be with you. I'm not even sure I could be with you.

Just look at the sky, there are countless stars there. Imagine that we have our own stars. I might not be the only one wishing on your star. Of course, other girls who likes you are wishing on your star too. But Frances Clark makes sense that there wouldn't be a sky full of stars if we were all meant to wish on the same one.

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